so....ok its been awhile and i know no one really reads this. thats ok cuz i kinda need to just vent. so this year is almost over but yay me! i get to spend almost 6 months away from my friends and family. i left for navy bootcamp july 16th. graduated with like 38423984 stress fractures on september 12th and got sent across the street to A school on september 16th and i've been here ever since. its been pretty brutal and now i'm getting discharged but whatever. i dont wanna be here anymore. it sucks. the navy is a joke.

but i did learn a lot about myself and other people. i fell in love and i mean deep deep in love but of course no one you love will ever love you back the same way so that sucks. why cant things just ever work out for me?

i dont really know too much else to say. things suck so far and everyday is a waste.

i get through my days listening to aerosmith cuz they discribe how i feel.

i really want to play 360. i want my music from my computer at home. i want to see my dogs. i want a home cooked meal made by my mom. i want to use a remote for a tv. i want to drive my car. i want to argue in person with my dad. i want to make fun of my brother. i want to be home. i want the person i love to love me back. i dont want to get old. i dont want to die. i want everything in my life to be EXTREME!